After almost two years of waiting for approval my niece, now godchild Ruby Anastasia Angelina Evan was baptized along with Nicholas and three other children last Saturday. It was a long sad delay due to a stipulation of Bishop Nickoli that children would not be baptized unless their baptismal name matched the birth certificate. It is very upsetting to see the extent of turmoil within one's church. My niece was named after two of my elder relatives: Anastasia, for my father's aunt and Angelina for my mother's aunt both who were very close to their faith.
Academically things are better but not up to my standard. I still have half of the school year to go and only two weeks until I have to escort my daughter to wait in Bethel for her last month of pregnancy. I have ten hours (two classes at five hours remaining) and my son is still fighting his bad cold. We had to fly to Bethel on Tuesday to be seen at the hospital, came home and almost was sent back to Bethel today. On April 4th I will have an interview for my internship year...I am having doubts due mainly to the lack of support I am receiving in childcare. Have I come this far only to be snagged with family issues? If I am, would it have been better to just stayed as a Homeschool Coordinator? I look at all the other people with jobs they can leave at their workplace and just deal with family once home and look at my homework and reading assignments that I can't get to or get done due to personal issues... I want to be a teacher, I know I will be a good one - if only I could get the support I need to do the work. There is no childcare services here, all my relatives are unable to help, and we have another baby coming in 8 weeks. I can do a lot but I am only one person and I do have my limits.
