Friday, November 12, 2010

A moment of reflection...

I have not posted a blog in a long time...too busy and no internet at home for the longest time. During this time so much has happened ... stressful, sad, happy and many variations and combinations of each. The last time I posted my grandpa Peter "Papasneak" passed away on April 5th, 2010. On October 23, 2010 our "Big Ap'a" Alexander Isaac joined him and our family. It was sad to lose him but at the same time we were happy that he got to join his wife and all the other departed loved ones. We were blessed to have our grandfathers for as long as we did, and our gram for that matter.

Village news? The eels came and my brothers had a blast. I have not cooked eels since the last time my Ap'a asked me to cook for him.

Family news? My eldest daughter is due in December and my second born is due in May. My son and granddaughter are in their terrible twos - don't know who coined the second year of life terrible twos but that seems to be right on target with my son's behavior around the house. he is a cutie and his personality cracks us up a lot of the time but man can he make a mess!! Curious George ten times over!!!! all innocently done too!

School news? I had to postpone my internship year and may have to move in order for it to get done.... long long long sad story... I have enough saddness for this entry. Suffice it to say I am stalling out big time. I have even begun to think "what if I am not meant to be a teacher?" now THAT would be sad. Especially when I think of all the time I neglected my family and Ap'a because of homework. Made me cry and got me depressed for a while there when I couldn't do the internship here at Russian Mission. Gosh - here I go again... I will try to blog again when the waterworks calm down.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Seriously considering inventing ice gloves and socks for cooling off

Fairbanks summer weather is usually the hottest weather in the state - and I am feeling it! OMG I am one hot eskimo! haha - not like OMG that woman is HOT - more like OMG that woman needs something fast or she is going to have a heat stroke! I know - some of you are thinking, "C'Mon! get real! Fairbanks is not too bad right now." I know - I am surviving. It just feels like I am a little out of my element and didn't bring too much "juss hut!" clothing to wear. (Two jeans???) lol

This was more to rant, I am not serious about the ice gloves and socks...or am I??
Enjoy the hot weather while you can - I know I will - when it get too hot I just picture how Fairbanks is during winter and think - this is not too bad. Not too bad at all

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Trading some time with family to complete classes - tough.

Unlike those in urban communities, when a distance ed student needs certain classes only offered on campus one must leave family behind and travel sometimes a great distance to complete the class. On Saturday June 13th I had to leave my children to attend a class in Fairbanks. I sure wish I could have brought them with me but the cost of travel within Alaska is almost two times more than one would pay to go out of state. The class is starting out very well, with 9 other students in a post-baccalarette program. I commend them for their stamina - they are doing a whole set of two week classes together. One of them has a 3 week old baby. My first day was okay, the second evening (yesterday) I was sighing and calling home. My daughter teased me asking if I was going to cry - I just responded YES! I miss you guys! Most of the people I knew when studying on campus are not here - it feels almost empty. There are a couple people here which is such a relief but - I miss my babies!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

At Fairbanks for a meeting

Alaska Native Teacher Preparation Project (ANTPP) is having a meeting here in Fairbanks so I get to travel.... I just wish I could have brought my family here. It is HOT out. 78 degrees yesterday. I met a lot of great people and I greatly enjoy the wonderful accommodations. Wonderful role models in long-time native teachers. Great times!!!

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Where did SPRING go???

Its so cold outside!!! snowing on May 1st?? OMG. It is cold and dreary and dismal outside yet my two-year-old boy makes a bee-line for the door every time I turn around. We went through an almost daily routine of changing his clothes an average of three times before he tired himself out enough to not want to run out as soon as his shoes came on. I am so ready for summer...just not all too thrilled about the bugs that comes with it.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Peter Nick "Ap'a Papasneak" 7-4-1918 to 4-5-2010

My Ap'a Peter passed away during our Bright Monday, the day after Easter, at the YKHC hospital with family surrounding him. It has been a very busy week and a half... The things that comfort me is that he has had ALL his prayers answered. 1. He had a long life 2. He was surrounded by family 3. he did not leave us suddenly as he feared he would and 4. he passed away during a time we hold sacred - our Easter season. We miss him greatly, yet I am at peace knowing he no longer hurts, is no longer sick...or lonesome, hungry or sad. May he rest in peace and his memory be eternal. I love you very much Ap'a, thank you for being such a big part of my life, and showing me by your example how to be a true human being.