Sunday, September 27, 2009

Grandpa may not make it to 92


This fall has been plagued by sickness here and in the region. I am thankfully recovering from a positive strep sore throat infection thanks to the wonderful, yet very prickly penicillin shot. The day before I had it I was shivering in bed so badly in the morning that I made a nice cozy fire in the stove and had everyone complaining about the heat as I bundled up yet another blanket and fell into deep sleep. It took a few days but my body and mind recovered - I really should say is recovering. Sadly I am not the worse case scenario in the family. My grandpa has not been feeling well, his heart is weakening. My extended family is here, well most of them to give comfort and support to him in this difficult time, of which I am thankful he is able to receive. One thing he told me recently was that he worried that he would "leave you in a bum way." He meant dying suddenly, without being able to say goodbye and have everyone emotionally ready for his departing this life. The old folks interpretations of good or bad always leave me pondering about life in so many ways. I am thankful his wishes have come true, he has had a long life with a large family. Not many people can say "My grandfather has lived to know my granddaughter." Still, it will be hard to see him leave. I pray that he finds peace in knowing we love him and will support each other to continue on our own journey with him near because he will always be close to our hearts. I have posted a picture of him with most of my father's lineage. I don't think we would have a way to get everyone included if we were all here. We would have needed a panoramic photo taken. Only in my dreams would that be possible... Still I want more with those we have here today, but I will not put my grandpa through that on account of his condition. Some things are just not meant to be I guess.