Didn't make it to Fairbanks for a class needed for internship...

Well I don't know if it is prophetic, pragmatic, or just pathetic but there were a lot of things that detained me from reaching Fairbanks for a retake of ED 410. For one thing, Hagelands - FRONTIER ALASKA I should say did not have me listed to Bethel. Then I did not have a ticket for Bethel to Anchorage to get to the Anchorage to Fairbanks part of my trip. It was probably a good thing because I had a bad case of the flu Saturday and Sunday. So right now I am wondering what is next...

If I listen to Karma all signs are saying that for now it was just not meant to be. If I be practical, looking at my personal situations family-wise I would say I need to be here for my family for a while and help them out with fishing and preparing for my daughter's wedding (Charitina, on August 31st). Also my grandfather will be turning 90 on the 4th of July and people are expecting a big celebration - I was so bummed that I would miss it. Financially I need to get some work to help with the bills. I usually work at the store every summer since I used to work at the store as a manager starting in 1996. My grandchild got medivac'd on Thursday evening but is doing much better after spending the past two days admitted at the hospital. I have been trying to help my grandmother with her fish harvesting whenever the fishing opens. Its been kinda tough since Nicholas has asthma and cannot stay at camp. I love cutting fish, being at the camp - just hate the smell on us once we get home :)). My mother told me that there is talk of a lot of berries on the Kuskokwim area. Oh what I would do to go on a berry picking camping trip with my family!!!

Oh well - we will see what those who arranged the travel say tomorrow, but I don't know what I am going to do. I feel like everything is bumping into me saying "Hold it!!! Slow down!! Be watchful! Get ready for something - be with your family right now!!!" I just hope it is nothing prophetic because my grandparents have not been feeling very well lately... It is in God's hands where I go from here. If I am meant to be in Fairbanks I will make it up, if not - I must be needed more at home.

Unwinding before life tumbles me hither and yon again

Back from escorting my grandpa to Anchorage for preventative screening. This trip was LONG and basically unproductive - They did an ultrasound on his corroded artery and scheduled a review the next morning to do a "follow up" only to have us wait an hour later than the appointment, skip us because my grandpa went to use the bathroom.... that is not the end of it! The Doctor sat down and said "You are doing a follow up from August of 2007?" I was not in a good mood. After I told him that he was to review the report from the sonogram that was done the day before he looks it up to find it missing. He turns to us and says "I cannot consult with you about the test as it is missing, you will have to schedule an appointment tomorrow." It seemed to me a brushoff because he never even attempted to call the cardiologist department to see if they can check their records just said "it is not here, you must come again." To make this story short - I filed a complaint, and asked that the information be sent to his primary care Doctor since the one we were talking to did not seem like he was interested in anything about my grandfather. He was willing to have us come again in two months to have the procedure done again and review the one done yesterday during that time. When we finally reached home I was so tired I took a nap. Later on my sister called me and said "they were cutting 50 kings at camp today." I felt so guilty because I was just too worn out to leave my son and granddaughter who I had not seen in four days to go down to camp and join the procession. I did try to do my assignments while at Anchorage but I could not concentrate. OH i so want to just close all the books and just go back to the simple life of having a job! In all honesty my stamina can't hold much more of this wide variety of unorganized life.